Let a Ray of Sunshine Fall Upon Me

Child, sister, wife, mother
No denying, she followed her own beat
misunderstood by many and
oftentimes by me,
This woman did what she could.

To the stars I see my dad
To the sun, so vividly my mom
Bright in spirit and determination
Let a ray of sunshine fall upon me.

To know her was to be frustrated by her
a direction we were to follow
She spoke from a world she knew
perhaps, there are other points of view.

To the stars I see my dad,
to the sun, so vividly my mom
Bright in spirit and determination
Let a ray of sunshine fall upon me.

Was there a moment to relax
A breath of air to breathe?
Schedules, lessons, commands, 
demands!
The expectation sometimes unreal.

To the stars I see my dad,
to the sun, so vividly my mom
Bright in spirit and determination
Let a ray of sunshine fall upon me.

Not a day without a question
Her questions had questions!
Story teller qualities,
where we actually heard the words,
"the end."

To the stars I see my dad,
to the sun, so vividly my mom
Bright in spirit and determination
Let a ray of sunshine fall upon me.

The quality of motherhood
no one can deny
Her entire world revolved around her daughters 
helping, being there, reaching out, wanting
to be involved.

To the stars I see my dad,
to the sun, so vividly my mom
Bright in spirit and determination
Let a ray of sunshine fall upon me.

I will miss this mother of mine
One that was assigned,
As I reflect upon our life together,
I dare say, perhaps we were suited to each other.

To the stars I see my dad,
to the sun, so vividly my mom
Bright in spirit and determination
Let a ray of sunshine fall upon me.

I will take her well-intentioned lessons,
edit out the rest,
I will share with her moving forward 
her work here now complete.

To the stars I see my dad,
to the sun, so vividly my mom
Bright in spirit and determination
Let this bond of motherly love be
a ray of sunshine for me.


02/15/1933 – 02/03/2021

NOTES: Mom gave me an article from the newspaper on the way to the hospital. The article was lovely commentary authored by someone who had just lost her 99 year old mother. My mom was a follower of hollyknits.com and would always comment on my writing. hint, hint. You see, she knew.

She chose to donate her body to University of Buffalo for study. She always laughed and said, one way or another I’m going to go to that University.

She would have loved the Super Bowl.

Holly

Holly knits with grit and believes a happy life is a well balanced one.

16 thoughts on “Let a Ray of Sunshine Fall Upon Me

  1. Your mother sounds like a force to be reckoned with-and knowing you, I know she loved you very much. I wish I had had the chance to meet her, but reading this, I feel like I know her. Sending hugs.

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    1. Kirsten, thank you for stopping by! Yes, I guess that is a good way to think of her … a force. I will hold her dear in my heart in every good way.

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  2. my hope for you, holly, is that you take kind, gentle care of yourself. the generations, the journeys and the learning, through it all you have shown such grace.

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  3. My thoughts are with you, Holly and so sorry for your loss. The relationship of a mother and daughter is a special one. May the memories you have of your mom over the years give you comfort and peace. Take care, Holly.

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  4. Holly, my heart goes out to you. It is so hard to lose so many in a short period of time. I lost my Dad December 2019 and my husband in October. My mom is now fading. How do we deal with so much grief and carry on.
    we can share our thoughts and feelings

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    1. Jane, it is so helpful to write. Yes, I remember you sharing your losses with me. I do not have any answers but I did inherit my Mom’s strong determination and spirit. For that, I am truly grateful. Memories of our loved ones hold me up and I keep telling myself how fortunate I am to have loved these people. Counseling, friends, neighbors, and remaining family are very helpful, as well.

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    1. Thank you, Ann. It is so helpful to me to write. Her loss is quite bittersweet as her physical body could no longer. She was just shy of 88, a long lived life and I pray she is now comfortable and at peace.

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  5. Dear Holly, I was saddened to hear about yourMom’s passing. I hope she didn’t suffer . I lost my Mom on Christmas Eve a few weeks ago and it was the most difficult good bye I’ve ever had to say. Your beautiful poem described your Mom perfectly.
    I’m sure that our Moms are reconnecting in heaven, talking about their daughters. Peace to you my dear friend 💜

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    1. Sue! What a lovely surprise to see you, here. I am so sorry about your mom’s passing. My mom was very aware till the end and in the last few hours of her life, she basically ran through a commentary of her life. So, you being such a part of my childhood, you and your mom were mentioned. She was wondering about her health, also how you were. I mentioned something about you and Fla. (perhaps a snowbird) and then, of course she had a million questions about that. She said she wasn’t scared for what was about to happen and really tried to look at the positive even in her last few hours. I will actually miss her daily nags and our conversations. She was my lifeline during my grief of 2017 when my world turned upside down. It was perhaps, then that I truly learned to appreciate her.

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  6. Holly – I’m so sorry for your loss; you’ve had so much over the last few years. Thank you for sharing your journey and giving it so much poignancy.

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